I dedicate this post to my favorite girl, my grandmother, Magnolia Merritt. She made her return to Spirit on December 11, 2019, but she rests within my heart always.
I made it through Mother’s Day 2020, the first one without my grandmother. It was emotional and yet tranquil for me. I wanted nothing more than to sit with myself to think. At one point in the day, I found myself hiding from my tears in the shower. I allowed the water to cover my face. Without even a whisper, my soul moaned.
Have you ever needed to cry without questions from others as to why you were crying?
I didn’t want to explain it. I wanted to release it. I needed the quiet. I needed the shower water.
I am hugely aware of my granny’s spirit surrounding me, but I miss her physical presence. It’s been seven holidays, including her birthday, without her.
Finding peace when dealing with grief or mourning a loss is hard. Regardless of what kind of pain you are faced with, however, even during grieving, peace is attainable. Here’s the key. While you’re going through it, reflect on the lesson. There is always something to be learned.
After my shower, I did my usual ritual. I lit my favorite scented candle (mahogany coconut). I’m an avid believer in aromatherapy. (If you haven’t tried it, you should.) I turned on my favorite soundscape (Ever Free Never Bound by Babaji Bob Kindler/ Jai Ma Music). It’s a calming joyful tune. I sat wrapped in my favorite blanket with a scenic view from my game room window. I closed my eyes and thought about what I was supposed to learn at that moment. What I came up with initially was dying is a part of life. It is an end to suffering and all the things we tell ourselves to get by. When I pushed passed those things, I came to the lesson.
The lesson was to pursue those things I wanted while I still had time and life to do so. Often in life, we procrastinate and take time for granted. We wait until tomorrow to start our work out, change our eating habits, start looking for a new career, or start a business. Time is the absolute best gift that one could have and/or give. Yet we squander it waiting for the right moment. Grandma’s passing taught me that now is the time!
It’s time to start pursuing dreams.
It’s time to live the life you want.
It’s time to be happy.
It’s time to stop worrying about tomorrow.
It’s time to start doing things spontaneously.
It’s time to forgive yourself for your mistakes.
It’s time to change your narrative.
It’s time to let go of grudges.
It’s time to face your fears.
It’s time to get you some peace!
I have so many things that I want to do. I am sure you do as well. STOP waiting. If you are suffering a loss, consider the lesson in that loss. Ask yourself, what am I supposed to learn in this. Before you know it, you’ll be so distracted by ambition that the person, place, or thing that you’re grieving will be your inspiration. Accomplishing personal goals puts your mind at ease.
Now, get you some peace!